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December 03 Back To BloggingMark's got his new blog and I'm suddenly inspired to start my blog again. I have changed the title from ::this is my life:: to ::life of a total nutcase::. It's very appropriate new title as I'm slowly starting to not only believe that I'm going crazy but that also I am way beyond help.
A lot has changed since my last blog about our pet snails. Needless to say, that was shortlived. I don't think they were thriving in a little tank. 1 of them died and that made me panic, so I returned the other 2 back into the "wild" aka the garden at my apartment building.
As many of my friends know... Warren and I have split up. It was one of the hardest decisions for me to make but I guess it was bound to happen. I still do love him dearly, but now as a close friend, and hopefully one day we can be best friends. We never really got to that stage when we first met, got married 3 months after we met and then everything... and I mean EVERYTHING happened in the span of the 10 years we were married. It is hard, but that's life I suppose. I won't go into details over what drove me to that decision but it had to happen. It's just a shame because of how it will affect Faith and Daniel. I am very grateful and thank my lucky stars that Warren and I both love our kids dearly and that would never change.
So now Warren is working in Manila at the moment, and we are back living in my Dad's spare apartment (thank god for parents that love you unconditionally). We will be flying back to Perth for good very soon. Living arrangements will be the same as before but once the kids settle down, Warren and I will have to start planning on moving on from there. Not sure how all of that will pan out but we will do our best to make the kids happy first and get them to understand why everything is happening.
I did have a relationship after splitting up with Warren. He was someone that I knew since I was in high school. Again, that was shortlived, as I simply cannot juggle kids, moving countries, catching up with friends and family, finding a new employer for our maid and a relationship all at one go. Something had to give. I was going through way too much stress. I do hope he finds happiness though.
I haven't been able to sleep lately, and the only way to fall asleep is to lie on the couch and watch TV or play games on Facebook or chat with my fellow insomniac friends on MSN. I did have some left over sleeping pills from my surgery but they've run out *sobs*.
Daniel's got a fever right now, he's lying next to me, Faith is obsessively counting and stacking all the coins we have in our little container. We had plans on going to East Coast Park for a bike ride but it's raining and Daniel's got his fever. His fever was probably brought on by having his tooth pulled out by his grandfather yesterday. Poor kid. He did get 10 bucks from the tooth fairy though, lucky boy. I think I might have to pull one of my teeth out to see if I can get some spending money for my trip to Phuket with Irny.
Quite a few people have asked if I should really be going to Phuket, with all that political unrest... but rest assured, we're not flying into Bangkok, we're flying straight to Phuket. Should be fine. But I will be ringing the Thai Embassy the day before we fly, just in case.
Okay.... I guess that's everytihing for now. I have lots to say... so much on my mind, just need to sort of organize my thoughts. I have stopped working now and have lots of time to write in here!
Love,
Sharon
April 15 Our Pet Snails These are the new additions to our family, Jiggy, Jojo and Ziggy. The tiny one in the middle is the late "Zaggy", whose life was violently ended, when our jealous cat Robbie decided to knock the whole tank off the table. The lid came off and crushed Zaggy, a painful and tragic ending for him. A moment of silence please.
As for everyone giving me grief about having boring pets... well, sure, I would love to have a dog... but not possible since we're not going to be in Singapore long. Maybe once we get back to Perth, one day. We'll get one... of course, my kids will be all excited about it for the first 3 days, then lose complete interest in it, which eventually will end up being MY responsibility and not theirs.
When we leave Singapore, these snails (if they're still alive) will be put back into the "wild". The "wild" meaning, the gardens of my condominium. Where they have a higher chance on getting stepped on (but then again, better than being crushed by a jealous cat). So for now, they will enjoy their yummy fruit and have lots of attention!
Welcome Jiggy, Jojo and Ziggy :)
Love
Sharon April 09 Scene from Love ActuallyThis is my all time favourite scene from Love Actually. "It's a self preservation thing, you see." Love "Actually"
Sharon
April 08 A Sad Sunrise Woke up this morning feeling really sad. I had a dream about N. I was out at a pub with some friends when I suddenly heard quite a commotion. Men cheering for someone... but I couldn't see that person. I walked up and tried to get between the crowds when I saw my ex best friend, N. She was dancing and having such a great time. She had her arms open wide, as though she was about to embrace some invisible force. I saw her laughing and just being so free and wild, like her old self, before she met her husband A. I pulled her aside and said with a huge smile "Oh my god, what are you doing here???" And she looked at me and said "Sharon, you were right... he hit me again, almost straight after we got married. But I've left him and I'm so happy!" She then went back to dance, to the cheers of dashing young men.
My alarm clock rung.
And I woke up feeling so sad, and so helpless. And I started thinking of her, wondering what she's doing now. Is she happy? I really hope so. I really do.
Love
Sharon
April 05 To My Dear FriendTo my dear friend... you know who you are. It's been about 12-13 years since we last saw each other and yes, we have come full circle. I am so glad I found you again and to see that there is someone who is my soulmate. We are one in the way we think, we are one when we dream at night.
If I could re-live any day, it would be any day with you in it. We were young, carefree, and lived like there was no tomorrow. We shared (and still do) so many of our deepest thoughts and feelings.... The vulnerability of our youth.
All your lyrics are so profound, the pain of your words reach deep into my heart. Nobody has ever done that.
And because I hold you close to my heart, I hope and pray* that you will, one day, get to where you want and need to be. Cherish every moment you have, and make the most of it. Have confidence in yourself because you are a kindred spirit. You are kind, funny and most of all, wonderful. In my heart, you will never be misunderstood. Don't let anyone knock you down, you deserve to have as much happiness as anyone else. Free your heart of all the hurt, pain and sorrow... and live again.
My dear friend, thank you for being you.
Love
Sharon
*in a totally non-religious way but you already knew that lol
April 04 ReligionI was waiting for Warren to finish work the other day. Sat by Boat Quay, where the big bird is. I took my book out to read, started on where I left off in the train, when this guy in his early 20s came up and introduced himself to me. His name is Jason (not his real name, of course), from New Zealand, but with a very strong European accent (?). He told me that he took 2 years off to travel to Asia to spread the word of the Church of Jesus Christ Latter Day Saints. I was in awe of his dedication and faith, to have taken 2 years off to VOLUNTEER for the church, so I put my book down and listened to what he had to say.
Jason told me that if my family and I accept Christ right now, we would all be reunited in heaven when we died. (Is there a heaven? And who's been in there to say to us that it exists?) He also told me that this guy (I forgot his name) in the 1800s, had a vision. This angel (I think) told him that all the other churches had no authorization from God himself to lead people. Now he has been given the authorization to open up a church that is truly HIS.
Now... I don't get this. What if I had the same vision (which I can only interpret it as something similar to a dream)? If I told everyone about it, and said I am now authorized by God himself to preach his word, would anyone believe me? Did anyone question this guy's credibility? Okay, in the 1800s, there weren't any pyschiatrists around. People NOW who claim to have had visions etc are immediately given a pyschiatric evaluation. Chances are, they aren't quite right in the head. I'm not saying that this guy is looney, because I don't actually know him. But what IF he had psychiatric problems?
Jason also told me that there are 12 prophets alive today and they live in America (surprise surprise). Why not in China? Or in Tibet? Or in India? WHY America?
I'm not against religion, in fact, I sometimes do admire how some people base their whole lives and their actions on religion. Maybe it IS a good thing? Keeps people in line, maybe? I grew up as a Methodist Christian, was even in the church choir! But somehow, something didn't quite sit right inside me. When my church friends told me that I shouldn't be talking and being friends with non-Christians, I thought, isn't Jesus supposed to love everybody? I also have so many questions inside and when I asked my family (who are quite "religious"), they told me "Everything happens for a reason, Sharon". Okay, so what's the reason? I NEED answers. They said I shouldn't question God's ways. Why not? Everything else in society can be questioned and scrutinized. Why not religion? Why only say that "God works in mysterious ways"?
Can you imagine a politician who demands you to support him while he kills millions of people... would you accept that he works in mysterious ways? No, you demand ANSWERS of course! And you do your best to make sure he is never in power again! So this is how I feel about God... he takes away innocent babies, takes loved ones away from you... and all they can say is he works in mysterious ways? Sorry but I need more than that.
Back to being reunited with my family in heaven when we die.... What if I was a good and decent person my whole life (I'm not saying I am LOL) ? If I don't hurt anyone (intentionally), don't murder etc... basically being a good person, why don't I deserve to go to Heaven (if there is one)? Is Heaven like an exclusive country club where only the elite can join? Here's a better question... what if I *did* murder someone, or if I was a pedophile, or rapist... and at my hour of death, I accept Christ (and I mean TRULY accept Christ)... does that mean I get to go to Heaven? See, I don't get that logic. There is NO WAY a pedophile should ever be allowed access to Heaven!! That's my opinion anyway, and another blog idea LOL
What about Buddhists and Muslims and all the other religions? Do they have their own "Heaven"? Is it like another planet like Earth, where there are borders? (Okay, dead Buddhists turn right and go straight, second "heaven" on the left. Dead Muslims, turn left, make first right, first "heaven" on the left. Dead Christians keep going straight past Muslim Heaven, then make a right, then it's the 3rd "heaven" on the right. All other religions, please press ONE)
I'm not attacking religion, not attacking the Mormons... I just have many questions that cannot be answered. I seek the truth and I need proof. If I can't see it, then I can't believe it. But Jason, I do respect your dedication... and I sincerely hope you find all YOUR answers through God.
Love
Sharon
March 17 Perth and Its AftermathI just got back from Perth and I feel like I need another 3 weeks there. We were in Perth for my father in law's 70th birthday party. It was really nice, he got all the families a serviced apartment each to stay for the night (at The Vines, a golf resort).... The rooms were beautiful.... There was a really nice dinner and and breakfast... very relaxing... well, almost.... if "she" wasn't there. I wonder why some people make it their life's mission to irritate others? Funny enough, this person doesn't really have to say much... just ONE comment from her can really send everyone's mood crashing down. Oh well... I guess people like them actually WANT to be all alone when they're old and grey.
Spent time with family and close friends, really enjoyed it! It's really made me miss the life there, so we've sort've made a decision about it but will tell more when I'm ready. I love Singapore but I think I have spent too many years away and I can't really cope with crowded shops and supermarkets anymore. Yes, the food here is sooo cheap and there is absolutely no need to have to cook at home... and it's bloody expensive to eat out in Perth (compared to Singapore of course... A$8 for a plate of mediocre chicken rice and S$3 in Singapore???!!). BUT I still prefer Perth to Singapore. Each country has its good and bad points I guess. I'm torn though... when it comes to friends. I love my friends in both countries.... They've all been really good to me. So staying in one country means I don't get to see some as often as I'd like. But they'll cope without me, I'm sure LOL The world is so small now.... so easy to travel around, Facebook, Messenger.... all different ways to communicate. And as for the kids... they would love to be back in Perth. Faith bawled her eyes out at the airport saying she didn't want to go back to Singapore. She said she likes Singapore but she wants to be back in Perth... all her old friends in her school... Her best friend Gemma.... Sigh... Not sure when I can be back there....
Warren and I went for an inspection at our house the other day. The tenants are great, they are taking great care of our home.... I looked around the house and felt so sad because we renovated this house with our bare hands. Our blood and sweat! And now, some other family is living in it. Then we popped in to our neighbour's (Pat and Leigh) house. Pat and Leigh are pensioners, really lovely and really funny!! We were in their home for 45 minutes just soaking in all the gossip Pat had to offer LOL This is another difference with Singapore and Perth. The neighbours I have here in Singapore are so unfriendly, in fact, I got in the lift with one of them the other day and she actually tried really hard to avoid eye contact. Weird, did I do something wrong? But Pat and Leigh have helped me with soooo much while I was renovating and Leigh would be on my lawn fixing my sprinklers, even if I wasn't home!!
As you all know I've been spending more time on Facebook than on here... please forgive me but Facebook IS more entertaining *I think*. I guess it's just mindless fun sometimes. I have had to delete some people off my list.... They're people I haven't actually met in person, mainly on iThink... But I'm really sorry if I've had to delete you all... I think my friends list was a bit overwhelmed with people I don't even know. I don't want to be one of the people that "collect" friends online. So, whoever you are, if you read this post.... I'm sorry. You all have been great but just understand, it's not personal... I just need my Facebook to be ONLY for people I've actually met in person.
I've also had to re-evaluate some aspects of my life (one of them is realizing I have a few friends I don't know on Facebook)... What have I been doing in my free time? Not much really. I spend a lot of time online, Facebooking, MSNing, surfing... basically sitting on my fat ass in front of my laptop. This needs to change. I have put on too much weight and it shows all over. I have to start exercising and also get back on my "Life's To Do List". How did I get to this stage? Mark's right... I've got too much free time on my hands... no job, which explained why I was so depressed. I need to stop procrastinating and stop blaming the world for being in the situation that I'm in. I hate victims and yet I've become one. This has to stop. I also need to stop partying so much. All that alcohol is not doing my weight any good and I've started binge drinking(thanks to Eden, who opened my eyes). It takes A LOT of drinks to get me close to being tipsy... I HAVE to cut down on my drinking... it will save my liver AND my bank balance.
I have something really BIG to look forward to now and I'm very excited. I'm also gonna start exercising tomorrow and will keep doing so until I LOSE WEIGHT. Promise!!
Well it's bedtime now, will keep everyone updated again :)
Love
Sharon
March 03 Girls' Day OutGave Faith the day off school on Friday and we had a girls day out. Went for buffet lunch at the Marriot Hotel.... I think Faith and I totally needed to have this day to bond. She ate so much salmon sahimi, I actually thought she was going to turn orange when we left LOL
After that, we went and had a manicure and pedicure... how spoilt!! :)
        Love
Sharon February 26 Phenomenal!This video has been going around Facebook walls and I thought I'd share it on my blog too. He's phenomenal! He brought a tear or two to my eyes. WOW.
Check out his website too. February 25 Writer's Block I have been having writer's block lately. I always have so much to say but this time I don't know where to start. I guess I'm still not feeling 100% but I'm on my way up, I promise :)
Few things happened recently... It was Warren's birthday but I didn't make any announcements because he's not a big birthday person. He hates the attention, and so I had to keep it on the down-low. Very different from me LOL If it was MY birthday, I'd like the whole world to know and the focus to be on ME ME ME!
My little brother Roy just celebrated his 21st at Thumper. I hope he had fun! So many of his friends turned up, and I think they had a lot of fun too. Poor kid was so drunk but you only turn 21 once right? The crowd at Thumper is normally older so this is quite a nice change to have a bunch of 21 year olds there! One of his friend said to me "It's so cool that you still party at YOUR AGE". GROAN.
We had a barbeque at our place on Saturday night. It was good fun, had some of my close friends there! It was an unofficial birthday celebration for Warren, and belated housewarming party. I had all the food ordered online, and they were going to deliver it to my place, so it would be stress free for us. BUT they didn't bloody turn up which really pissed me off. (long story but it ended up with me yelling at them and hanging up on them) So Warren had to do a mad shop 1 hour before people started turning up! Poor guy was under so much pressure. Thank goodness Mark and Caris came early and I dumped so much work on them. Thanks!!!! You guys have been a life saver! Mark immediately took over and helped while I did everything 3 times as slow (was still recovering from Roy's party). So I owe Mark BIG TIME. (No, Mark, I still don't owe you, you-know-what LOL)
There was another big party at the condo too. At the end of the night, I ran out of plates for the cake, so I went up to the other party and asked if I could buy some plates off them. Do you know what he said? "Please take all these plates and I'm not taking any money from you, don't be silly!" I was so grateful! Then about half and hour later, he turned up at our pit and gave us 2 bottles of wine! What a wonderful man! I then went up to his side and gave him a slice of cake to thank him... and damn, he then gave me a carton of canned Australian wine! WOW, you don't meet such generous people like him everyday! We were so grateful.... my friends asked me to go back with another slice of cake to see what else I come back with LOL.... Of course I said NO!
The last people left at around 3.30am!!
Oh yes, you remember my blog about some stupid woman who had a power trip and wanted to ruin my party? Well, guess what, she cancelled her booking. Hmmmm what a surprise.
I haven't been very good with uploading pics on here. I guess I am still addicted to Facebook... so all my pics are in there. I know more people check out my profile on Facebook than in here. I just use this site now for my ramblings... Happy, sad, angry feelings... whatever.
I have so much to do today but yeah, I'm online as usual. Sucks. I need a list of things to do cuz right now, my mind is everywhere and my thoughts are all over the place. Gotta get organized. I promised myself to get my life back in order again, so I'll try :) I've also started reading again, a wonderful book to help me get inspired... Thanks Jo :)
Love
Sharon
February 20 Too Many Unanswered Questions Came across 4-5 different situations in the last few months. All directly/indirectly to do with my friends and men. Some are my own issues too. Makes me wonder... why do we do it? Why do we put ourselves through hell? Always seems like a good idea at the time. Maybe we thought we could get away with it, maybe we have become so blinded with love, passion, lust and pain. Why is it almost always a different outcome from how we envisioned it at the start? Are some of us so addicted to the attention? To the feeling of falling in love and having butterflies in our stomachs? And then what? What happens when the relationship becomes mundane? What do we do then? Do we go out looking for more? Or do we try and fix our current relationship?
Why do we do what we do? Knowing that we would get caught at some point? Why do we hang on to someone who has left us? Why do we still get jealous when we see our ex with someone else? Why do we yearn for attention? Why do we blame "the other woman" when we should be blaming our man who cheated on us? Is it easier to blame and be angry with someone we don't know? Why do we think we can love two men at the same time? Do we think we can have our cake and eat it too? Is there a difference between an affair and a one night stand? If you don't love the guy, is that still considered cheating? If you DO love the guy, why don't you leave the man you're cheating on? If a man buys you gifts for sleeping with him, is it just as bad as prostitution? Why do we allow men to physically and emotionally abuse us? Do we not have any more self respect? Why do some of us think that breaking up is the worse thing in the world? Why do some of us keep crying, will it bring him back? Why do some of us love bad boys? What is it about them that we go crazy for? Why is it that when women sleep around, even they see themselves as sluts? Yet most men pride in being players? Why, why, why?
I have been thinking of all these questions today. Just thinking of what I've been told lately and also through my own personal past experiences.... I am really confused. In a moment of passion, we forget about everything else. We forget the people we may hurt in the long run. Why? Where is that "voice of reason" when we need it? And if we do hear it, do we ignore it? Why do we put ourselves through all of that pain? Can we honestly say it was all worth it? And if it was worth it, was there a sacrifice to be made? What was at stake?
We try and get advice from our friends, sometimes we even beg for it. Friends who love us, care for us and want the best for us. Our friends can sit with us over a drink or a meal and spill our guts. Chew their ears off with our problems. But sometimes that's not enough. Sometimes we have been warned. Yet we walk into a dangerous situation with both eyes wide open. Many of us KNOW what we're getting into, subconsciously telling ourselves that we're making a huge mistake. Devil and Angel sitting on each shoulder. The Angel's got a sore throat, and the Devil just won the American Idol audition. So who do we listen to?
I have no answers. And I can't give my friends much advice. I am so confused, so lost as to why we feel the way we do, and do the things we do.
Love
Sharon
February 15 Happy Valentine's Day!This is so funny.... Dan told me this morning that he had to take a box into school to make me something for Valentine's Day. I gave him an old shoe box and sent him off to school.... I was so excited! Anyway, when he came home, there was a look of guilt written all over his face. He showed me the box, all beautifully decorated. His teacher gave all the students some lollies to put in their boxes for their mums. I'm not sure about the other mums, but by the time Dan got home, there weren't anymore lollies left! He ate them all!!! hahahahah He gave me a box of lollie wrappers!! Ah well, it's the thought that counts right? ;-) Now he owes me some lollies, will take him to the shops tomorrow!!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
    The look of "guilt"!!
This is one of the weirdest couple I've ever seen in my life. Okay, just to make this all clear to everyone... The one with the gold leggings (with the extreme VPL) is the female, the one with the HOT PINK leggings is the MALE. Yep, the BOYFRIEND is wearing HOT PINK LEGGINGS.
I thought to myself, "Maybe he's gay?" But nope, this couple was all over each other, kissing and cuddling... All their actions were just like a normal couple.... but the pink leggings threw me right off. Oh yeah, let's not forget the man bag he was carrying.
Maybe I should get Warren a pair of pink leggings hahaha. I think he would look SIZZLIN' HOT HOT HOT!!! Owwww!
Love
Sharon February 13 Personality TestDid a personality test last night because I was BORED. Here are the results... not sure if it's me? Let me know hahaha!!
Love
Sharon
My Gu Gong I visited my Gu Gong (grand-uncle) the other day for Chinese New Year. I hadn't seen him in years, I think the last time I saw him was only very briefly, at my grandmother's (his sister) funeral. He is now 92 years old... and sharp as hell.
Astounded at how smart and quick witted he was, I was speechless when he was sharing his war stories, his life experiences and his views on religion. My Gu Gong told us that he was only in his early 20s when he had to hide (from the Japs) in jungles, being bitten alive by mosquitoes, sleeping at night and terrified of the darkness. He witnessed the beheading of 3 of his close friends. He survived malaria. He was hospitalized for a spinal injury/disease for 6 months and survived it.
He moved to Singapore over 60 years ago and bought his house for S$7,000... and now it's worth... erm... a whole lot more. People have come to him with blank cheques, wanting to buy his house off him and he would always say the same thing, "If I sell my house, I have no home. No thank you."
His views on religion, "It's bullshit!". He said that during the holocaust, all the Jews must have prayed so hard to God.... so where was he when they were all gassed? He said that when he was a young boy, yes, he believed in God. But he has seen too much to believe anymore. My Gu Gong believes that the bible was written centuries ago and it is just not applicable to the modern world now. (I joked and asked if he would follow my religion if I wrote my own "holy book" lol) He doesn't believe that he needs to live his life based on a book written by men centuries ago. WOW. My Gu Gong is also up to date with the current affairs of the world and shared his views about the war in the Middle East. What an amazing man.
Many men his age are burdened with Alzheimers, dementia, cancer etc. This man is still healthy, alert and bright. He has no troubles walking, just as long as he doesn't run marathons! I admire him so much and I pray that, if I am lucky enough to live as long as him, I can be half as brilliant as he is.
Love
Sharon
February 07 Happy Lunar New Year, Everyone!It is the eve of Chinese New Year and my parents and brothers came over to our place today for reunion dinner. We had steamboat and bbq right in our living room! It was really tiring for me at first, as I was preparing all the meat til 11pm last night and was up at 7am and started cooking! Then I had to rush off to Faith and Dan's school to watch their concert, which was beautiful by the way! Everyone turned up at arounf 5pm and we ate for about 3 hours non stop!
It was really nice as we haven't all spent Chinese New Year together in a few years, with us being away and Melvin being in China. So this year is pretty special :)
       Now they've all gone home, I've washed the dishes, cleaned the kitchen and mopped the floors. Time for me to unwind, write this blog and slowly drift off to sleep :) Will upload pics and videos now!!
Love
Sharon February 04 Exhausted But Happy!!       My big brother Melvin is back from China! He's been missing Singapore's food soooo much, so we (Warren, Faith, Dan, Roy and me) went to East Coast Lagoon Food Centre. We ate soooooo much!!! Sting ray, satay, squid, gong-gong, chicken wings, wanton mee, satay bee hoon, orh-lua, and washed it all down with sugar cane juice.... Yuuuuuuuuuuuummm!!!! Welcome back to Singapore, Kor-Kor! :-) And thank you for all your wonderful presents!! :-)
 (Not quite Alex Baldolini, but I was in this position about 20 times today!)
What an exhasting day I've had! I spent 2 hours at my first motorbike practical lesson. I must have been the biggest loser in that group, in fact, the biggest loser in the history of motorbike riding! First of all, I wore the wrong shoes. I thought I was clever enough and DIDN'T wear thongs LOL They made me wear a pair of old worn out canvas shoes, that apparently has been sitting in their store room for about 10 years, and to make matters worse, it was 2 sizes too small! My toes were scrunched up and they ended being sore and raw! Anyway, that's not the "loser" part LOL The loser part was I just couldn't balance the bike well enough because it was HUGE and HEAVY! We first had to learn to use the clutch and throttle.... everyone caught on so quickly and moved on to riding in the mini circuit. Miss Loser here took forever!! I didn't even get a chance to go on the mini circuit :-( Boooohooooo!! I spent more time trying to pick myself up off the floor :-( Out of every 10 tries, I managed to only do it right 3 times! 30% is ok, right hahahaha
I was really embarrassed but all the instructors were so wonderful and so patient with me! At one time, I even had 3 instructors with me, all to myself LOL One behind, one next to me and another in front of me! LOL I felt so "SPECIAL" duuuuur....
BUT I am NOT giving up. Riding a motorbike is on my "Life's To-Do List". I don't care if it takes me 5 years to learn, at least I'm trying!
 (Traditional Steamboat)
Then after the lesson, I went home and had a hot shower, to wash off all my yucky sweat! Had to rush off to Faith and Dan's school for a parent teacher's meeting, then had dinner (sushi AGAIN)... and off to NTUC to stock up for Chinese New Year. I have 2 lots of family coming over for an all day meal at my place (Wednesday for reunion dinner, and Sunday with my mom's side of the family).... The shops were crazy, tons of people climbing on top of each other, it was hectic!! It's like Coles on Christmas Eve!
Now I'm in bed, on my laptop, airconditioning on, in my PJs, with the TV playing softly in the background. I'm slowly starting to fade and shall say goodnight! Goodniiiiiight! LOL :-)
Love
Sharon (aching all over from "not" riding!)
February 01 Ouch! Boohoohoo :( Hot oil splattered on my hand when I was cooking last night... Had a huge blister (ok, huge to ME), and Warren made me pop it. Gross.
So much for 'lucky' bird poop.
Sharon
January 31 Poopoo! I never liked birds... They're the only creatures that have the luxury of flying over you and pooping on you. They FLAP. And I don't like FLAPPING.
I was sitting under a tree yesterday, waiting for the shuttle bus to take me home. Suddenly I felt a "smack" on my back, I turned and saw I had been pooped on. And as soon as it happened, some guy walked past me and said "WAAAAAH, BIRD SHIT AAAAH!!!!". Gee thanks for your wonderful insight, mister. No, I didn't know a bird pooped on the back of my shirt. Really, I didn't.
One of the residents of my condo, who was also waiting for the bus, said that where she comes from (Ukraine), it's really lucky (don't they all say that, what's so lucky about being pooped on?), and that I'll be getting money soon. Just then, I had a text message to say I had a cheque ready to be collected. Coincidence? Hmmm.
Meanwhile, I was glad I had wet wipes in my bag, to clean it off my WHITE shirt.
Love
Sharon
January 28 My Favourite Things
Just thought I'd write a blog of my favourite things/people... Not in any particular order... Just whatever that comes to mind :)
Hanging out in Jo's backyard
Singapore food
Any good novel (especially by Tess Gerritsen)
My Mighty Bright book light (for my late night reading)
Reading next to Warren in bed
Chilli crabs with Warren
Sushi with Warren, Faith and Dan
Swimming with Warren, Faith and Dan
Watching TV
Jo's yummy sausage rolls
Partying with Christine
Long chats at the pub with Mark
MSN with my friends and family
My God-daughter Xavia and her wonderful parents, Anton and Pania
The movies -- The Notebook and Love Actually
Johnson's Baby Powder before I go to bed
My high heels
My thongs (for my FEET)
Tickling Faith and Dan
Watching any movie with a really cute guy in it
Watching any movie with a really cute older guy in it (e.g. Clint Eastwood)
Sandra
My pajama pants
Seeing the excitement in Faith and Dan's eyes
Burping contests with Gemma
Catching up with good friends/old friends and family
My dreams, good ones and weird ones
Our new apartment
Our house in Perth
Singapore's "provision shops"
Dancing/Clubbing/Partying
House music
People watching
Vodka Cranberry
High school memories
Tickling Gemma
Playing the "5 finger game"
Date nights with Warren
Dozing off in the afternoons
My cat, Robbie
Chinese New Year Goodies
Okay, maybe I have many favourite things LOL... maybe next blog will be things that I don't like? That list might be a lot longer LOL
Love Sharon
January 24 4 Hours LaterManu just phoned me to apologize for the whole saga. I told him not to apologize, it wasn't his fault at all. All he did was be kind to me. He told me that she's not the most well liked person on the counsel. In fact, she brought her friends a few days ago to book 3 pits, all under different residents names but really, they were for her friends, and weren't residents. Maybe I should take it up to the board?
At War Again Sorry folks, I'm at war again. You don't even have to read it, it's just me being really angry and need to let it out.
Woke up early this morning to make sure I get first in line to book a BBQ pit for our house warming party. Bookings start at 8am, and I rocked up at 7.30am. Those who know me, know I'm not a morning person AT ALL. So waking up and going to the office at 7.30am is a BIG thing for me LOL
I was the first one to be there and saw the security guard. Told him I was there to book the BBQ pit. He said to me that the bookings start at 8am. Told him I knew that, and I just wanted to be there early, to make sure I get it booked. He was so nice to get me a seat, and in the end, took my booking anyway, even though it was at 7.30am. I wanted to book 2 pits side by side, the ones by the pool. He told me that it's one pit per resident, so all I have to do is ask a neighbour if I could use their name and unit number to ensure I got the 2 pits side by side. So we got that all sorted out, and I thought maybe at the same time, I can book a tennis court for Sunday and the karaoke room for Faith to sing her heart out to her High School Musical 2 DVD. It is now 7.45am.
This woman walks up to me and Manu (the security guard), starts raising her voice. "Warning" Manu that he has to make sure he doesn't take any bookings before 8am. Immediately, I lied to cover his ass and said that we're not booking yet, just talking about it, that's all. Then she asked for the BBQ booking file. (Turns out, she's one of the condo council members. Like I give a crap.) She saw that I not only booked BEFORE 8am, I also booked 2 pits, which wasn't allowed, as only 1 resident is entitled to only 1 pit. So I LIED again and said I made the other booking on my neighbour's behalf (that's not a big deal though, all I had to do was give their name, apparently many residents do that). She started giving me crap saying that it's not fair to the other residents blah blah blah. So guess what she did... SHE BOOKED THE OTHER BBQ PIT, RIGHT NEXT TO US. Just so I can't have 2 pits. I looked into her eyes and said to her "So you're just doing this to spite me, aren't you? There are 6 BBQ pits in this condo. You now want to book the only pit that has 2 next to each other." She just looked at me with the bitchy look and reminded me that she was in the council. I was furious. She told me that I should book another single pit somewhere else. I said to her NOPE, I'll stay where I am, thank you very much. Let's see who has the bigger party.
She wasn't even there to book a BBQ pit in the first place!! Now she booked the other pit RIGHT next to mine (it's side by side), just to piss me off. I mean, it was only 8am and all she wanted to do was shit on someone's day. I'm not a morning person and she chose the wrong person to mess with. She's lucky Faith and Dan were with me, or I would have really given her a piece of my mind. But that's ok, I'll have a talk with the management. She wants to screw me, ohhhh.... she'll get it ten fold from me. Stupid stupid bitch.
Sharon
January 21 Smiling Prohibited on Trains Since I've moved back to Singapore, I've been taking the train everywhere I go. It's clean, fast, efficient and reliable. It's one of the world's best public transportation. The train is probably one of the best ways to get around Singapore for a cheap fare and getting to your destination safely. Nobody is allowed to eat or drink on board, there are constant reminders on the PA system telling us to be considerate of others. No littering. And beware of suspicious characters. Really, would anybody report someone who "looks" suspicious, carrying a bag that looks like it has something in there that might go off?
I also love people-watching at times. You'll find many various characters on board. Corporate people. Teenagers with the "punk" look. High school students. Middle aged women clinging on to their groceries. People reading the newspapers and having one person each side trying to read in. People of all ages playing on their PSP. People on their iPods. People chatting on the phone or furiously texting their friend. People pretending to be asleep so they don't have to give up their seats to those more in need.
The most interesting thing about the passengers are their "soul-less" looks. It's funny to see how they've got that "look"... with no expression whatsoever. That "far away" look. That "glazed over" look. Sometimes I wonder what they're thinking. Are they upset? Worried? Angry? Or do they just dread the idea of going to wherever they're headed? I don't know what else to expect though. I guess am I expecting someone to just randomly smile at one another, without being mistaken as a flirtatious gesture? Or striking a conversation with the person on the next seat? I really don't know.
So far, I have only met ONE person who started a conversation with me on the train. It was a really nice breath of fresh air (until she mistook me as a Filipina, but that's a whole different war again LOL). But that's it, just her, this middle aged lady, who moved up one seat so my kids could sit next to me. Everyone else seems to be in a world of their own. I shouldn't really criticize, as I have never made the first move to talk to a stranger on the train.
Am I like that too, when I'm on the train? Do I have that "glazed over" look in my eyes when I'm on the train on my own? That's why I always have a book with me. To read and be lost in another world. Just so I don't have to face the world of unhappy faces. Because --- maybe, just maybe, I might blend in. I'm not sure if I can randomly smile at someone anymore. I used to be able to, but now, I think if I do that, it might be mistaken as something more. I do make sure I thank people if they give up their seats for my kids. I make sure I don't hog the whole pole by leaning on it so no one else can hold on to it. But everyday is a war for me, telling people off for not giving up their seat to the elderly. Telling them off for pushing their way into the train without waiting for everyone to alight first. SIgh..... I'm always at war with something.
So for now, I will carry on taking the train, and people-watch or read my book. Maybe I will make more of an effort to randomly smile at someone. Doesn't cost a single cent to just flash a smile at a stranger, right?
Love
Sharon
January 18 Spam, Spam And More Spam I have decided to get a new email address (only given to friends and family, of course). I am so sick of turning on my computer every morning to see that I have 30 emails waiting for me, only to find that 25 of them are spam and just 5 for me (which are mostly forwarded emails LOL). NO, I do not need Viagra. NO, I do not want to see horny housewives. NO, I do not want to see farmers fornicating with farm animals. NO, I do not want to give you my bank details so I can hold millions of dollars for your president.
In hindsight, it's my fault. Over the 10 years I have had my hotmail account, I have been leaving a trail of my address everytime I sign up or subscribe to something. (NO, I haven't signed up for any porn!!!) But how was I supposed to know? I thought I did the right thing by setting my account to "Exclusive", which meant all junk was supposed to go straight into the junk mail folder. But somehow, these people have found a way to get past that and squirm straight into my inbox. I read that spam companies can buy email addresses from websites (that we subscribe to) for a very small price. A few dollars can get them hundreds and thousands of email addresses. SCUM BAGS.
So here's my advice (from what I've read so far) --- When you subscribe or sign up for something online, either 1) use a fake email address, or 2) set up a new email account, specifically just for subscribing.
Leave your personal email address for your family, friends and work.
Love
(Hopefully) The New and Improved "Spam-Free" Sharon
January 13 Tess Replied!!I cannot believe this but WOW, Tess Gerritsen replied!! I'm soooo over the moon!!!
Here's her email :-)
From: Tess Gerritsen (tess@tessgerritsen.com)
Sent:
Sunday, 13 January 2008 10:28:20 PM To:
shaz dimps hi sharon,
thanks for the note -- and for dedicating a blog to me! I'm traveling in the UK right now, but will visit your website and sign in when I get home. And don't worry about the character who dies in Bone Garden -- it's a story that takes place in 1830, so the character who dies is from that era and not Jane, Maura, or anyone they know!
tess
How exciting!!! And I'm so glad none of my favourite characters died in Bone Garden! As I started reading The Sinner, I realized that I have read it before, just after The Surgeon. I was quite annoyed with myself, so I went off and bought Gravity and Harvest. I'm still over the moon :-)
Love
Sharon
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